Wednesday, November 27, 2013

I am thankful for...

..Jillian! LOL that sounds so weird.
I am in Eco club aand, this seems really lame but I was sort of nervous going there for the first time. It was the beginning of September, or mid september I think and I still did not know many people at school and eco club had been going on since the first day of school. I wasn't sure if I was going to walk into the club behind on everything, not knowing what's going on. It was stupid but I have anxiety like that-like I'm really shy. So anyhow, it turned out that Jillian was going as well! So I was actually really excited to know someone a part of it. So, we just walked in and she introduced me to some people and-I mean really all she did was help me understand what was going on so I wouldn't have to ask a complete stranger. It was very helpful. This probably seemed really lame but She was so helpful to me, in my situation and nervousness around people. 

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

I Celebrate Myself

Well, so I'm not sure at all what this post should be about. The prompt is very open-ended, so pardon me if what I write isn't what you had in mind. Idk.
"I celebrate myself" means, I think that-well another way of boasting about yourself. But it's not necessarily a bad thing, to talk good about yourself. In fact, I think it can be a good thing since in our society all that's normal and good is humility and extreme humility and self consciousness. You know I'm sure most of us had that time in grade school during art when "Oh! yours is so good!" "Oh no. It's bad, yours is good!" When, the second statement could be a complete lie. or when you got a super hard test back and the conversation went like this- "whoa! you got an A+! Everybody, soandso got 100%!" "oh no-I didn't. *hides test in folder". or the kid who flipped out because they got a b instead of an A. We, (of course I don't mean everyone, just the people who share these experiences) are so used to acting so modest and not recognizing our talents, or greatness and I don't think it's a good thing. If you draw a really great picture that everyone is complimenting on, accept those compliments. I knew a girl who was so great at painting that she's sold a few already, and she just pushed way all of the compliments anyone gave her with "oh. no it's bad". Like- no! it's obviously not bad, just say thank you! It became frustrating to the point that we all just stopped complimenting her art. Also, I completely understand where she's coming from. Playing along with "I celebrate myself", I was pretty good in art as well! My self portrait got hung up in the glass box! And so I know how it feels to have people bombarding you with compliments. This also happened with grades- people holding up my test for the entire class to see. I know how tempting it is to say "no, it's bad", but I don't. I say thanks, sometimes keep my head down because I'm embarrassed, but I don't reject what others say. It's a lot more relaxing and comfortable when the person accepts their compliments. Don't get me wrong, this isn't saying boast about everything you do, because people really don't care. But when you're given a compliment, accept it, because rejecting it honestly makes the person look scared and like they have zero confidence. 
p.s. to read this, use your mouse to highlight it. sorry, i have to go in rainbow order.